I’ve been struggling at work for the past six months. Why, you ask? Well, I’ve made some mistakes. Some of them weren’t entirely my fault, per se. When my “bipolar disorder” flares up, I struggle to think clearly, which means my medication isn’t working correctly. When this happens, I don’t think clearly enough to remain calm and consider the consequences. As a result, I sometimes make careless mistakes. You know, those mistakes you make because you’re lazy and not paying attention? Yeah, I’ve been there and done that. I certainly don’t wear that T-shirt proudly.
Work is already hellish because I have to be on the ball. It’s tiring to work at being on the ball. I’m not perfect, don’t claim to be, don’t want to, don’t need to. I work to stay at my job. With my bipolar, I work at everything. Sometimes, I fail, and others, I’m lucky. I’m fortunate to have a good day or even a good week.
I’ve been with the company for three and a half years. How, you ask? I’m lucky to have a good boss. She’s been a blessing in disguise. I’m not sure if she knows much about “Bipolar Disorder,” but with me, she’s learning firsthand. She asked me, at times, if I was having a bad day or week. If she only knew!
There were times that I wasn’t taking my medications and not by choice. She saw it and asked me about my medications if I was taking them or not. You can tell my behavior when I’m on or off them. I’ve never had a boss do that. I can teach my boss, but then I would overload her brain and get fired.
What can I not teach my boss about “bipolar disorder” that she doesn’t already know about me? She’s still learning, and so am I! She can tell you that I’m still teaching.
All I can say is, “Welcome to my World.” May you have a thrilling ride, and may you discover and understand more about what bipolar disorder does to the brain of the one creating the content. We have one heck of a journey ahead of us. May you stay along for the ride. Happy reading!
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